Tuesday, October 15, 2013

Struggling.

If you follow me on Twitter or have noticed a couple of comments I've made in a few posts, you may be noticing that I'm unhappy with my job. I know I started out loving it... but that just isn't the case anymore. The very first sentence in that post has now been confirmed. 

I'm just plain exhausted and I don't love the actual job I'm doing. I still love the people around me and getting to wear whatever I want to work. But, with the hours I work I don't get to take advantage of the other perks the business has to offer (like that food!). 

The hours are also completely wearing me down. I'm working Tuesday-Thursday 1 pm to midnight and Sunday 10am-9pm. This means that on a normal week I see Christian Monday night and then not again until Friday morning. Yes, I'm off Friday, Saturday and Sunday and that somewhat makes up for it, but I'm at the point where I'd rather have a Monday-Friday 8a-5p position so that I can see Christian every day. 


The only way I could get a "normal" M-F schedule is if I worked 4p-1am and I'd see Christian even less in that case. And that schedule sounds absolutely awful to me. I also know that with all the planning I have on my plate now, that I need something more stable and less exhausting. 

I understand that every single job on the face of the planet is going to be tiring in its own way. I'm not asking for an easy, mindless job. In fact, I want the opposite. I want to be doing something less mindless than what I have now. I want to be doing something in my field. I would rather be doing these hours or dealing with this stress in a position that I feel will get me somewhere I want to be. I also want to feel challenged and like I'm making a difference everyday and that's just not how I'm feeling. 


And this still may be the place for me, and I'm just feeling the pressure of everything going on in my life. But, if something doesn't give, my poor little nerves may lose it. Maybe I sound crazy and like I'm rambling for no reason (which I may be... ) but I really needed to just get this off my chest and hopefully I'm not the only one feeling this way or who has felt this way at some point in life..? Bueller? 
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5 comments :

Pleas(e) and Carrots said...

Ugh that really sucks! I hope everything works out for you!

Becky said...

Ughh those hours sound tough!! I hope you can figure something better out!

Sara Elizabeth said...

Those hours sound awful, no wonder you're feeling unhappy. Hopefully things start to even out soon.

Miss Glam Dan said...

I'm in the same place mentally with my job, so I completely understand how you're feeling and it's almost a relief for me to know I'm not alone. I really hope you can figure out a better situation to better your life. :) Sending my love!

Danielle xx
missglamdan.com

Kathy @ Vodka and Soda said...

in my opinion, the place you work - the place you spend 8+ hours PER DAY should be something you enjoy (for the most part) so if you hate it and the hours are killing you, find something else.

every job sucks at some point; hell, i've been doing back to back deployments and have one more (these deployments go from 12am-8am) and then there's 2wks of normalization (read: all hell breaks loose) so the past few months have been pretty exhausting. BUT aside from these crazy deployments, i love what i do. when i start to hate it (but doubt i will since i've been in my field for 10+ years), i will not hesitate to leave.

life is too short to be stuck in a job you longer like because it's damn hard to get up every day to do what you're doing.

-kathy
Vodka and Soda

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