Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Back to the grind

54 days. 8 weeks.

That's all the time I have left in this semester. In Boone. At Appalachian State. As a college kid.

I can't believe it's almost here and I have ZERO motivation to finish out this semester. There's still so much to do to get the grades I want and to actually have a job I want by the time I graduate, yet the motivation to do these things is gone.

I am so tired of these stupid group projects. I'm so tired of dealing with professors being ridiculous. I'm tired of exams and papers and lectures. I'm just tired.

I'm tired of researching companies. I'm tired of interview prep. I'm tired of waiting around to hear back from jobs. I'm tired of having to drive back and forth to Charlotte for interviews.

Now, these job hunting related gripes are just because I'm tired in general. I'm very thankful that companies want to interview me. I'm thankful that these companies like me enough to send me on to second and third rounds and hopefully hire me. But, I just wish it involved less travel. But, this was my choice to move to Charlotte and everyone else is doing it too and I know they're all as stressed as I am.

I just want to have a job I like at the end of all of this. I want to know that I will be okay moving to a city on my own (well, not with my parents, at least).

I also just want to enjoy my time in Boone, but I'm not. I'm so unhappy right now. It's mostly stress from all this I mentioned. And I know that I am going to have a blast the next two months but I also know that most of that won't be in Boone.

The next three weekends I will be in Charlotte and Athens. Then two weekends in Boone. Then a weekend in Charlotte. Then my birthday weekend and then graduation weekend.

I have 2 full weekends left in Boone and I'm sad. I wish I had planned better. I wish I hadn't spent the last semester and a half being so stressed I can't function and enjoy this time.

This is seriously just a bunch of word vomit and I apologize for that. It's all ending and beginning so fast and it's scary. There's so much to do in the next 8 weeks that I'm just freaking out.

So.. there's that. I hope everyone else is having a less stressful day!

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